Summer: Thanks for having me, everyone. And either name is fine.
Announcer: Alrighty Summer, so how have you been? Or should I say where have you been? I thought we'd miss you since summertime's almost over!
ba dum tsss 
Summer: laughs I always love a good pun, although I'd have to admit that I've heard that one too many times to count.
Announcer: Oh, well what can I say? Great minds think alike, am I right folks?
crowd cheers in agreement Summer: Somethin' like that, I suppose.
Announcer: laughs Well in other news, tell us the news about you!
Summer: Well to answer your earlier question, I'm doing aright. Some days I have my ups and downs and deep downs, but I guess not everything can be sunshine and rainbows.
Announcer: I see, I see. Well, you just graduated high school, no?
Summer: Yeah.
Announcer: So, what are you doing now that you're out in the big adult world?
Summer: Unfortunately, nothing too exciting at the moment. I work full time as a manager at my job and since I don't really know what I want to do later on in life, I'm just going to a community college for 2 years, to get a feel for what I really want before I transfer to a larger university.
Announcer: Wait, I thought that you've once said previously that you wanted to be an animator, but now you're unsure of what you want to do? What caused the ambiguity?
Summer: Well, I also enjoy creating music and writing alongside animating or drawing so with all of these things, I don't know what I want to be my career and what I want to be my hobby.
Announcer: Speaking of hobby, there's all one thing that us here at CIS really want to know. Isn't that right ladies and gentlemen?
audience cheering and clapping Summer: What's that?
Announcer: Oh, don't play coy Summer! This is no time for fishing around!
ba dum tsss Silence Summer: ...?
Announcer: Coy? You know, like the fish? Koi fish? Don't play koi?
groaning Summer: Bruh...I know I make a lot of puns, but that one right there..
Announcer: visibly nervous Aaaand it looks like it's time for a commercial break! DeviantART LIVE will be right back after these messages! Don't you go anywhere because there's more to come, next!
Please don't leave. ______________________________________________________________________________________________________
(Is anyone still reading this madness?)
(Like...I've been putting this together for the past 3 1/2 hours, and haven't really even gotten to the major parts I need to explain. Gotta hurry up and get to the point, I suppose haha)
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
cheering, jive music plays Announcer: Welcome back to more deviantART LIVE! We had to take an...impromptu commercial break. With us live in the Studio, we have Summer joining us today! Before we left for the break, we asked Summer a very important question!
Summer: Uhh...well you never actually got around to asking me the question but what is-
Announcer: I'm glad you asked, my dear!
Summer: ...
Announcer: All of us here at deviantART LIVE want to know one of many things....It was reported that your account, AwsmYoshi has been essentially wiped out of any information or drawings for the past 8 months, leaving many to believe that you unofficially deactivated it! May you please explain why?
Summer: laughs slightly Let me give you the quick run down of what happened: So one day, my friends and I were talking about... something, I honestly don't really remember what. Anyway, somehow, the subject of me talking about how I was a borderline weeaboo when I was a freshman came up and-
Announcer: Wait...did you say weeaboo? And that you used to be one?
Summer: laughs Yeah, it was pretty bad. Sometimes I used to randomly throw incorrectly pronounced Japanese words in the middle of English sentences and run around the park with my arms straight behind my back as if I was a ninja for Naruto.
Announcer: laughs Oh dear! For those who don't know, can we pull up an image of that on the screen?
Laughter from everyone
Summer: laughing You see, it looks pretty cool when he does it! So I thought I could look cool too!
But I guess that wasn't the case!
Summer: Not in the slightest! Anyway, I started to explain to my friends that I used to draw a lot of Super Mario related things, more so Yoshi and that I used to make Let's Play videos on Youtube. They begged me for my username, but I refused to tell them and only gave them a small hint as to what it was.
Announcer: What was the hint?
Summer: Well, let me back up. I told them my username, but I didn't tell them how to spell it. They tried many combinations, from A-W-E-S-U-M, to A-W-E-S-M and I was confident that they wouldn't find it...
Announcer:...But someone eventually did?
Summer: sighs Somehow, yeah. One of them found my Youtube channel, and although embarrassing, I could handle that but I quickly made everything on there unlisted. However, there was a link to my deviantART account via my Youtube and when I found out that they found that, I panicked. For whatever reason, it was extremely embarrassing and since I didn't want to deactivate my account, I just threw everything into storage, and blanked out everything else.
Announcer: Why where you embarrassed? I mean, you've had this account for going on 6 years, isn't that something to be proud of?
Summer: You see... that's where it starts to get a little complicated. When I first made my account, back when I was... fourteen I believe - I'm nearly nineteen now - It was all about Yoshi this and Yoshi that. Even though I was into other things such as Kingdom Hearts or whatever anime at the time, "Yoshi" was the thing that defined me when I was younger. For instance, I ran into an old classmate whom I haven't seen since middle school the other day and she said "Hey, you were that Yoshi girl from BAS middle school, right?" She didn't remember my name, but she remembered that I drew Yoshi a lot and wore video game merch.
Announcer: So... I'm still not quite understanding, if your peers knew about you drawing Yoshi all of the time, why was it embarrassing for them to find your deviantART account?
Summer: I guess it has something to do with linking your real self to your internet self. It's something that I don't particularly mind now, but when someone finds out about how I was in the past that knows me in real life, it's embarrassing, especially considering that the identity I carried then is not the identity that I carry now. And to be honest, that has been my struggle with my account over the past few years.
Announcer: Struggle? The audience would love for you to explain.
Summer: Like anyone, when you grow up, your ideals and interests are subject to change. By my junior year in high school, "Yoshi" was not the highlight of my life anymore. To be honest, Super Mario from the start wasn't even my favorite video games series or even my second favorite at that.
audible gasping Summer: Kingdom Hearts was, and still is my favorite video games series, followed closely behind by The Legend of Zelda. Super Mario comes in at spot number three.
Announcer: Wait, so if it wasn't your favorite, then why was it all that we basically ever saw from you?
Summer: Because it was easy to market, I guess. Everyone knows what Super Mario is, some might know about The Legend of Zelda but very few people at that time knew about Kingdom Hearts. Also, it was a hellva lot easier to find Super Mario related clothing, figurines and the like as compared to the other two. Also, with a name like
AwsmYoshi, there's not much to expect other than Yoshi related inquires. That's why over these past few years, I been battling with my account. Disappearing and reappearing all of the time. I was trying to live up to the "AwsmYoshi" username, but it never worked out because I wasn't drawing for myself really, I was drawing for those around me and trying to keep them happy and I now realize that I just can't operate like that. It was only ever short term happiness, never long term. Not since 2014, that is.
Announcer: I think we an all relate to how you feel about that, we have to put our interests in front of anything else when it comes to passion.
Summer: You see, I cared about what I presented to everyone, but I wanted to also do what makes me truly happy, so last year, I tried to make a compromise by creating a "side account",
JeiJeiSummer. Here, I was going to post everything that wasn't Super Mario related and whenever I wanted to draw Yoshi or Mario or whatever, I'd put it on my AwsmYoshi account. However....This almost immediately did not work out for me.
Announcer: And why's that?
Summer: Well you see, contrary to popular belief, I still enjoy drawing Yoshi and playing Super Mario games occasionally but with two accounts, I was basically telling myself "hey, you can only do this here, and that there", and that just created a lot of restrictions that eventually wore me out. If you couple this with the fact that during this time, I was going through a rough time physically and emotionally about personal issues. I just overall had no desire to continue uploading anything from either of my accounts.
Audience awwing Announcer: We're deeply sorry to hear that, was it boyfriend related issues?
Summer: What? No...
Announcer: laughs Or perhaps maybe even girlfriend related? You always seemed to have-
Summer: ANYWAY.
Announcer:Laughing I was just joking with you. The tone of our show was starting to get a little solemn, so I had to spice it up a little bit!
Summer: ...
Announcer: clears throat So anyway, what do you plan to do now, Ms. Summer Jei? What does your future hold in regards to deviantART?
Summer: ... Well.. from here on out, I'm hoping to-
ding ding Announcer: Take a quick commercial break!
Summer: ...
Announcer: Find out what Summer is hoping to do right after these messages and quick words from our sponsors!
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
(You're a brave soul if you're still reading this lol)
(To be honest, I'm a little upset that I have never thought about using this type of format to express myself before. It's a lot easier for me to get my ideas across like this than compared to other methods.)
(Welp, I've been writing this for a while now. I'm gonna try to wrap up my final thoughts rather quickly so sorry if it seems "rushed")
(But real talk, I kinda hope that ya'll are enjoying reading this just as much as I have been enjoying writing it haha.)
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
cheering, jive music plays Announcer: Welcome back to more deviantART LIVE! Before the break, we learned what caused the absence in Summer's presence. Hopefully we will get to learn more as we continue to talk!
Summer: ...
Announcer: So Summer, as we were talking earlier, what do you plan to do now?
Summer: serious I plan to wrap up this abysmal interview as soon as possible so I can proceed to sue this program for emotional distress.
Announcer: visibly nervous Ahaa...Well, that might be a little-
Summer: Just kidding.
audience laughter Announcer: Oh...Well good! HAHA, you got me there! Ohoh... oh....
Summer: Anyway, to answer your question, I plan to soon be active again on deviantART, but in a way that hasn't been seen from me before.
Announcer: Please explain further!
Summer: Well, after months of struggling and contemplating, I have decided that I will continue on with my "main" account, AwsmYoshi, however, my username must be changed.
audience gasping Summer: I know, I know. AwsmYoshi is a name that I have had for years, but I just have to let it go. I really do. It just doesn't fit with who I am anymore, and since this account is nearly 6 years old, I don't want to throw those 6 years down the drain. I've worked hard to get to where I am now, even during my toughest hours. To officially close off this account or leave it as a "memorial" of my youth would be detrimental. I'm not trying to hide my past, I'm just trying to move on from it.
Announcer: Wait, so what does that mean for all of your old artwork? You said that it was in storage, do you plan on taking everything out or just keeping it there?
Summer: That was a difficult decision to make as well, but I think I've reached a compromise with myself. I will only leave up my most memorable works available to the public. However, anything that contains past commissions, art trades or gifts of other people's characters will be kept in storage, regardless of how popular it may have been. Remember, they're not being deleted, they're just being put in storage. If anyone would like a personal download of any of those drawings or animations, I'd be happy to give it to them upon request. Speaking of commissions, I understand that there were a few that I didn't....complete the last time I was active. For those people, full refunds will be issued without hesitation. I apologize for the inconveniences I have caused over the past few years.
Announcer: I see, I see. So let's go back to the name change thing. What will your name be changing to?
Summer: laughs slightly That's a surprise that you're just gonna have to stick around to find out. Although I think a select few already know.
audience "oooh"ing Announcer:laughs Well well, there are mysteries to go around! And speaking of mysteries, if you're changing your name completely, what does that mean for your character, AwsmYoshi?
Summer: Aww man, this was another hard decision for me to make, but ultimately, I've decided to let him go as a character, along with all of my other Yoshi OC's for the time being. I might bring them back, but they were characters that were super cliche, especially AwsmYoshi himself, so if they do come back, they will need some serious revisions.
Announcer: Well, we all hope to see them back soon, if at all possible!
ding ding Announcer: Well, it appears that we are running low on time! Summer, is there any last things you want to say to the audience here or listening at home?
Summer: laughs Last things? Pfft, no this is not that last anyone will hear of me but if there's something that I wanted to say, it's this:
I know I haven't exactly been the easiest person to have a conversation with or even understand, and I know that I've disappointed, or even infuriated a lot of you on multiple occasions, and for that, I just wanted to give a large apology to everyone. For a brief moment in my life, I forgotten the learned skill of how to communicate with others, and I've done poorly to redeem myself since then. But, I've learned a lot over these past three years, and if it's one thing, the only way you can move forward is to first, not reject your past mistakes, but accept them and use these painful trials to help aid in having a more successful future. I know things will be different for the both us, but I do want to try and rekindle the relationships and trust that I have long since broken. So from the bottom of my heart, I sincerely apologize and I hope that you guys are willing to take a chance to stand with me again during the "new age" of this account. I understand that what I might start doing from now on may not interest those around me, and that's okay. I just hope everyone understands that in order for me to be happy, I need to put myself first, and that's something I've never really done before. Announcer: And there you have it, ladies and gentlemen, straight from the Awsm lady herself.
laughs Is it okay to still use that term?
Summer:laughs Yeah, of course. It's not offensive to me or anything of the like. Actually, it makes me smile because it's like having a rad nostalgia flashback.
Announcer: laughing Well, we'll be sure to keep it going! Alrighty folks, that's all the time we have for today. Please, let's all come together and thank Summer for coming out and being with us today!
audience roaring and cheering Summer: It was a pleasure being here, thanks for having me!
Announcer: Until next time, this has been deviantART LIVE, from the Creative Imaginative Studios! Thank you all for watching and have a great day! If you have any other questions or comments, feel free to post them in our CIS chat box!
_____________________________________________________________________________________________________
So, I've lost all my computer memory, WiPs programs (including GiMP, Paint.NET, and FL Studio, a music program that I JUST payed good money for!) So in short terms, I cannot continue with any of my commissions and for that, I'm terribly sorry, but I have to hold them off for now. 
* 
So, as I'm trying to become more and more comfortable drawing different things, I want to experiment with new characters and backgrounds. That being said, I have terrible imagination right now so I definitely need some help.
If you wouldn't mind, just drop a link of one of your character(s) down below. Please make sure that it is a clean reference, I will not go hunting down for one. I also will not guarantee that your character will get drawn - really it's just going to boil down to who I choose. I might only choose 1, or I might choose 10, it literally depends on how I feel lol
So yeah, any character goes, and feel free to link me with however many you want to. From animals, to humans, to robots, reptiles, closed species, hybrids, fan characters, original characters, whatever! I'm just looking for a diverse cast of characters to draw so I can gain some artistic experience and level up!
Thanks in advance!